| Location | Hereford |
| Age | 69 years |
| Cause of Death | Cancer |
| Date of Birth | 01/07/1920 |
| Date of Death | 22/07/1989 |
| Visitors | 783 since 14/04/2007 |
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Saturday 22ndJuly 1989, sat in a quaint little resaurant with my brother, my Aunty, my two cousins and Aubrey in an even quainter little village called Colyton in Devon, UK, it was 1:48pm, 12 minutes to 2 in the afternoon, my blood ran cold, all the colour drained from my face and I put my knife and fork down on my plate. My meal left uneaten, my glass still full, I couldn't bring myself to speak let alone eat this beautiful food, the reason, because I just knew my Grandad had gone. It wasn't until we had been back at the house for a while, myself, my brother and my cousins were on the back garden playing badminton, my Aunty came out of the house with a basket of wet washing in her arms. I presumed she was just coing to hang it out to dry but she lay the basket down and said 'I'm sorry but I've just had a phonecall to say that Grandad has died'. The first moment in my life my Grandad wasn't there anymore, I had to go lie down, I was devastated, totally gutted...
The previous day I'd been sat beside my Grandad on his bed in his home in Hereford (a good 2 hour drive from where I was at that moment), he held my hand and told me to be good, he said 'I'll see you on Monday', I looked him in the eye and I replied 'I always do, see you Monday', I got up to leave the room I turned back because I wanted to say 'I love you' my Grandad's eyes were already closed, asleep, at peace, he needed his rest. I left the room and went to pack my bag for my 'weekend break'.
At that moment, 12 minutes to 2 on Saturday 22nd July 1989. I knew my whole world had collapsed and my hero had died and he'd just waited until I couldn't see his pain anymore. I don't know how I knew, I can't logically explain it, I just felt it in my heart.
My Grandad was just 69 years old, he'd been diagnosed with lung cancer just a few months before, he'd recieved treatment but nothing more could be done, all those years working as a coal-miner in the pits in Wales had taken their toll. I was 14 years old and didn't really understand what was going on, my Mum and my Gran had tried to shelter me from the truth somewhat because they knew how close I was to him, they knew just how devastated my Grandad would be to see me upset. We had this special bond, always had, always will. I loved him with all my heart and soul and looked upon him as the father I never had. If my Gran tried to give him his painkillers he'd keep the tablet under his tongue until she'd left the room, then somehow hide it under his pillow, I'd tell him off and we'd laugh. I didn't want to leave my Grandad to stay with my family, I wanted to stay and help him, I also knew that most of my other relatives were due to visit my Grandad later that day (I didn't understand until later that they'd all been summoned to the family home to say goodbye to my Grandad, everyone but me knew the end was near) but I knew I could never go against his wishes.
Saturday 22nd July 2010 was 21 years to the day since the day my Grandad passed-away and I can put my hand on my heart and say nothing, NOTHING has ever hurt me so bad, nothing ever will. I love my Grandad just as much as I did back then if not more and think about him all the time. My pain hasn't healed, it's never gone away, I still cry myself to sleep some nights, I carry his photo with me everywhere I go, I dream about the good old days when he used to take me for long walks on a Sunday afternoon, the times he took me 'nut-picking', when he taught me to play football and cricket, when he used to tell me his stories, the songs he sang, the advice he gave me. I still want my Grandad back here with me now. I have gone on to do many wonderful things using his death in a positive way in my life. I saw my Grandad sat on the end of my hospital bed just after I'd had an emergency c-section with my first son, I knew he was watching over us, I know he kept us safe. I've named all three of my boy's after him, just so a part of him will live on... I live my life in honour of my Grandad, my hero...
Spare a thought, think about telling that someone special that you love them, because you never know what tomorrow might bring. In life I have only one regret... I wish I could turn back the hands of time, even if it was just to say 'I love you' to him....
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Your Angel’s Watching Over You.
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Don’t let troubled thoughts,
Disturb your peaceful sleep.
Your angel’s watching over you,
There’s no need for you to weep.
Don’t let life’s tribulations,
Play games with your mind.
Your angels watching over you,
To protect you all the time.
The journey of life can be,
A difficult one to take,
Your angels watching over you,
And will guide each step you make.
Find strength from within,
To dispel all your fears.
Your angels watching over you,
And will wipe away your tears.
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It was Gran's 87th birthday yesterday & I know you were watching over us... you kept Jacob safe, I thought he was coming to meet you... Thankyou for looking out for him xXx Mushroom xXx
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I really wish you were still here Grandad, Sat in your spot in the bar of the Whitehouse with a drink cooling on the table. Everyone would be there to wish you a Happy Birthday, I can almost hear the laughter now... everyone smiling and content with life, feeling full and whole inside because your there.
I really miss you Grandad, you would always know the right words to say, you would give us a clip around the ear if we didnt do something right, you would of sorted us out if we crossed the line, you would of looked down at us and put your arm around us when we needed comfort, you would of laughed out loud at our antics and revelations, you would of shared a tear or two in our hour of need.You were the head of this clan and I miss you, wish you could come back to us and let me see your face again. Go for a walk to the river and watch the tadpoles swim around. Sit on the fields and watch the day pass by. I hope your alright up there Grandad, I dont really talk about you much to anyone but you know you are in my waking thoughts and my dreams... you know you are in my dreams and i thank you for giving me that xxxx
Happy 90th Birthday Grandad xXx
Ohhhh how I wish you were here, we'd have a right knees up for your birthday, you'd have loved it... bet you're up there in the Whitehouse in the sky... pint in one hand, fag in the other, playing cribbage & tellin stories to your buddies =) Miss you loads & love you more... Karen xXx
the good old days...
...my Dad came to visit me on Sunday Grandad, he asked if he could have a photo of you for himself... amazingly he remembers you from all those years ago, your memory is locked inside his mind... He told me about the good old days of you two drinking in the Western Vaults together, he laughed telling me about one of the many times you knocked some random bloke out in the bar... wonder where I get my quick temper from eh?? haha
I have cried on and off since Dad left on Sunday, it was the first time I'd seen him in three years... Over 20 years have gone by since you were here, I'd give anything just to have you here just to share your memories with me, I know you're here with us all but I really need a Grandad cwutch xXx
THE ROSE BEYOND THE WALL
THE ROSE BEYOND THE WALL
A ROSE ONCE GREW
WHERE ALL COULD SEE,
SHELTERED BESIDE
A GARDEN WALL.
AND AS THE DAYS
PASSED SWIFTLY BY,
IT SPREAD IT'S BRANCHES
STRAIGHT AND TALL...
ONE DAY, A BEAM OF LIGHT
SHONE THROUGH A CREVICE,
THAT HAD OPENED WIDE.
THE ROSE BENT GENTLY
TOWARDS IT'S WARMTH,
THEN PASSED BEYOND
TO THE OTHER SIDE.
NOW YOU WHO DEEPLY
FEEL IT'S LOSS,
BE COMFORTED.
THE ROSE BLOOMS THERE,
IT'S BEAUTY EVEN GREATER NOW,
NURTURED BY GODS OWN LOVING CARE.Jacks Family.xxx
With Love
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I dived inside the ocean of memory
And went deeper and deeper
Everything around me went still
My life began to rewind
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Flashing images from my past
The sorrows and the pains
The joy and the gains
I wanted some moments to stay for ever
And some to disappear fast
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My whole life came before my eyes
Then everything became blank
I was still, everything around me became dynamic
I slowly returned back to the present
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The ocean of memory is so vast
As life goes on, it grows bigger
I do make many voyages
Some so enthralling
Some full of pain
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But my heart doesn’t agree
It always wants to swim in this ocean .Rose & Family.xxxx
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Just wanted to say hello to you Grandad... I'm sure you already know but Granny will be 85 in under 2 weeeks, someone said to us yesterday that she's looking good for her age =) I keep looking at those pictures she has of the both of you, you know the ones of you two in your military uniform, so so pretty and you look so handsome... She got your navy collar out to show me and the boys, it's amazing... She told me the story of how you two met... in the pub and of how you were cheeky enough to send a drink over to her to get her attention, typical Pardoe!! haha!! I'm just thinking about what to do for her birthday too and am puzzled... Granny doen't like to say but I know just how much she misses you each and every day Grandad, smile down on her for her birthday to make her day extra special... I love you, Karen xXx
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